She always knew she was a little different. She could tell that no matter what she did, and no matter what she said, she would never fit in. She would always be different, and she couldn’t change that reality no matter how hard she tried. She tried smoking to look cool, drawing to be different and mysterious, cheerleading to be with the 'it' girls, and so much more, but no matter what she did, she was always the girl that no one noticed. The girl that was on the outside of the group looking in for a spot she couldn’t have. The girl that everyone leaned on, but when she needed someone, no one was there. The girl she doesn't want to be anymore.

Hi! I'm that girl, if you haven’t already noticed. You see, I come from a family where you can’t communicate your feelings without it becoming an argument. My mom is a workaholic, my dad is in rehab, and my sibling is pretty cool, but I still resent them a little because everything comes naturally to them, and I don’t like how I have to try so hard to get the littlest things.

I always wondered how it would feel to be in a big friend group, where there's never a dull moment, where I wouldn't be able to stay off my phone or out of a conversation because there are just too many people to talk to. But I guess I'll never know that feeling because maybe I'm too boring or too ugly, or maybe I just try too hard or maybe not enough. Who knows anymore? I feel like I've tried everything, and nothing is working out for me. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone.